Simon’s Takeover Part II – Explore Yourself

Hi Loves! Today is my “Friday” if you will…..the last working day before the holiday begins. That means tomorrow Lennon will be out scrambling around with the rest of the last minute shoppers grabbing whatever she can find to wrap or throw in a gift bag. I hate shopping this time of year but I’m lame and have been avoiding it for too long. It just doesn’t feel like Christmas to me this year for some odd reason. Can’t understand why really but it just seems like it crept in and whispered “Hey Bitch, you have four days to get your shit together, clock starts now, run bitch, run!!!!” Ok, now onto Simon’s Takeover. Last week he had a very unique story which got quite the attention. Today, he brings up some things that I really relate to. It’s way all too familiar. I think some of you will agree. Please check out Simon’s blog as he is exceptional. Not only is a fantastic writer but an incredible friend. Planet Simon

Explore Yourself:
The title of this sounds a bit dodgy. Like the kind of body search one might carry out when you think you’ve got a disease but what I have to say isn’t as weird but maybe more exciting.
Lennon and I have been friends for ages and we’ve started taking over each others blogs from time to time because we’re good like that.
What I thought this second post should be, is to reach down deep and explore all of us. If you know me….then you know I’m into space and exploration far away but perhaps the bigger adventure is much closer. Let’s see if this resonates:
Get up.
Get breakfast, coffee etc.
Go to work.
Get lunch.
Keep working.
Go home.
Sit on our ass and watch TV.
Go to bed.
With the occasional gems of getting laid and getting paid, a short holiday…. that’s more or less IT. Stop if I’m wrong.
Thing is, surely there’s more to life than this. Working for a corrupt system that takes from those that work.
How do you break the cycle?
Well the secret is….I dunno. I don’t. I wish I fucking did because I spend ages thinking about this and it’s a hard one. Trying to get that grip to get going and exist by and for yourself.
I need to explore my inner self and find out what makes me tick. What is it I need to do in the time I have left. Because it’s not paying bills and shit. I’m sure I’m not the only one, I’m sure others of you need to explore that bit of you that’s going to unlock life so that we learn to live life before we kick the bucket.
If anyone has any ideas… Let me know!

The Nothing’s


I grew up on the south side of town AKA the wrong side of town with divorced parents that struggled financially. Actually my Mom provided for us more than my Dad ever did.

My brother and I learned quickly that we had to work hard to earn money. There were times when my Mom would get us Happy Meals at McDonald’s and she would go without eating. It was a special treat for us to get McDonald’s. Of course I would ask Mom why she wasn’t eating and she would just tell me “I had a big lunch” or “I’m not hungry”.

Later in life a lightbulb went off in my brain…she didn’t eat because she couldn’t afford it. That’s love. This past year I wrote my Mom a letter and mailed it to her a few days before Christmas. I went over many memories in that letter telling her how much I appreciated the things she did for us. I mentioned I knew why she never got herself a happy meal and how I knew how much she loved us putting us before her own needs. She called and said she didn’t know I ever knew. She never wanted us to know she struggled.

I’m so so happy that I didn’t grow up wealthy. You know what stands out the most to me from my childhood? The moments we spent time together from shoveling coal into our wood burning stove to washing her car. She always though of free things to do to keep us entertained.

We used to sit on top of her 1979 mint green cougar at the airport runway watching the planes come and go.

We made Christmas ornaments with glitter and sweetgum tree balls.

We would put on funny skits that we would make up using her old records like The Beach Boys, Elvis and The Beegees.

It’s the little moments in life that are so spectacular to me.

I might come from nothing but the nothing’s were everything to me. These nothing’s turned me into extraordinary and very grateful. 

Appreciate every single thing loves. It’s all happening for a reason. That reason is growth and happiness.