God….It’s Me

Another horrendous work week for you God. Thank you for protecting so many…..I want to ask you to help those that lost their homes and also pray for those that lost someone dear to them. 

As our flight was delayed five times on Thursday coming home from vacation I noticed two women sitting behind us at the gate complaining of the delays etc. Thank you for keeping my mouth shut and for teaching me self control. Although the flights were delayed because of arranging evacuees to be shuffled around to find shelter, food and a roof over their heads these two were self consumed and rude. I pray that you teach them compassion and how to be grateful instead of complaining so much. 

God……please heal the broken hearts of the families that lost their elderly loved ones in that nursing home without air conditioning. I can’t imagine what they’re going through. 

I’ve given you a lot to work on here so I’ll let you move on. Thanks for listening and always being here ❤


God….It’s Me

Seriously? How do you do it? You’ve had a really busy week God. 

I’m praying for this weather to take a turn for the better. Between the earthquakes, hurricanes, and tornadoes everyone is scattering. I’m not praying for myself as we’re safe and comfortable here in upstate NY visiting family. Please watch over the people in harms way. Take care of your angels in disguise in uniforms that are waiting anxiously to save those in need. Keep the animals dry and warm and yes even the animals AKA looters and criminals….maybe give them a jolt up the *#%% a wake up call if you will? 

I want to aplogize for the eleven times I said the F word this week. I am so sorry. That’s a lot better than the previous week. Baby steps. 

Thank you for this platform to share my thoughts and my weirdness. 💙

God….It’s Me

How’s it going up there God? I imagine the sun is shining, there are rainbows, fields of wildflowers, my beloved pets, and grandparents, as well as others kicked back in white gowns, young again and chatting it up as well as helping you out as much as they can. That is, if you’ll allow them to? Why do I feel that you need help? I suppose it’s because I can’t imagine how anyone could take on every single human being or catastrophe alone? Why do I doubt your abilities? I don’t think it’s so much as me doubting you but I worry about you. Does anyone worry about you? Who takes care of God? You’ve always taken care of us for thousands of years…….guess I should quit rambling and worrying about you because I know you don’t want us to worry, period.

I am so saddened by the devastation of Hurricane Harvey. So many have lost so much whether it’s their family members, friends, a pet, a home, their business and so on. It’s way larger than what anyone anticipated. Is it possible you tested us during all of this? Maybe a hurricane to wake everyone up for people to come together and help each other? As some would say “Why on earth would God take lives or project this horrific hurricane on people and hurt them so badly?” We’re not to question you but it’s hard not to. It’s as if you’ve responded to my request from last week…. God….It’s Me of ending racism or bringing us together in some type of way. It hurts my heart though to know that so many are in pain and have lost so much for us to unite….I don’t understand it. Possibly one day you can explain it to me?

For now, I’m more than grateful for your care of those that lived through it. Please God continue to watch over each and ever person effected by this tragedy. Help those that are traveling so far to Texas to help rebuild, clean up, healing the wounded, and saving the lives of so many. Give them the strength, compassion, and willingness to get through the heartache of seeing those in so much need. Thank you for showing us compassion in so many ways and bringing us together to give back and to love one another during all of this.

Forgive us for our failure to listen and to thank you for all that you do for us. I’m so guilty of it. I get so busy with work and my not so Godly posts. I only pray that you have a sense of humor and forgive me. As times have changed throughout the years of when you created us, I’m praying you can understand that we adapt to the change as time cycles. The bible is sometimes difficult to comprehend because in those days things were so much different. I try hard to make sense of the bible and how it relates to me today but truthfully it’s a struggle. Thankfully I have you to keep me grounded and to guide me.

Well, that’s all for today God. I think you’ve probably heard enough and have many others to hear besides myself. I love you….. Amen



God……It’s Me…..

It’s been a few days since I’ve prayed. I know you’re always there, waiting patiently, watching over me and everyone else. You have a lot to do and I feel like you’re so busy….sometimes it just feels like I’m pestering you. Everyone says, nope, you’re here for each and everyone of us. I don’t see how you do it. But then again, that’s why you’re God right?

You know I have this problem with praying for myself. I don’t like asking for things. I believe the last time I prayed for myself was about three years ago when my husband was diagnosed with renal cancer. I prayed for him of course that you would rid his body from the disease. I prayed that you would give me the strength and the right words and courage to see it through and to be a good wife for him during this horrific journey. Of course, you came through for me. I didn’t break down until after the surgery where they removed the mass from his kidney. He never saw me shed a tear but afterwards I fell to my knees and cried happy tears and thanked you over and over again for sparing us and taking such good care of us during that time.

You take care of us every single day. Yes, I know, I’m not the most devoted or ever speak of you here on my blog or even in my everyday life. I actually cuss a lot and I know that upsets you. I could be so much better….if only I would be mindful. I don’t go to church either. But, I do pray.

Today…..I have some hefty requests for you. I’ve decided to start blogging to you and anyone who wants to read it once a week here on Sundays.

I’m praying for a very dear friend of mine. We’ll call her Sophie as there are people here that might know her if I used her real name. She suffers from depression and she’s one of the most beautiful human beings I’ve ever known. Nope, never met her in person but there’s something about her that makes me feel like I really honestly know her. She shares so much of her life with me and she feels comfortable enough to tell me how she feels and how she hurts everyday. She doesn’t believe in herself like I believe in her. She worries constantly about her family and her finding a job. She’s a kind, sweet, caring, overly talented person and has so much going for her. I feel that if you could just give her some good news or just make her feel better about herself everything would fall into place. She struggles daily and it’s as if there’s something in her mind that holds her back and makes her feel as if she’s not worthy of anything good happening for her. God, she’s so worthy. Can you put her on your list of people to work on and to help her out?

One more for you. I know this one is gigantic and I know I’m asking for A LOT. I don’t understand why the racism is still going on. The protests with the KKK, white supremacist, and so on. I don’t understand why Trump can’t see what’s going on and to do something about it. Does he not have compassion for others? What about doing the right thing? I see cops taking down people and cuffing them and then continuously beating them while they’re already down. I don’t get it. I also don’t understand why there’s so much hate in this world and why we have to go to war? Why was Kim Jong Un threatening to release nuclear strike on so many people? I don’t get it. I want a miracle to happen and I know ONLY you can do it. I want this racism, war, and hate to all stop. Each of us, White, African American, Pakistanian, Korean, LGBT, Muslim, Transgender, etc. are brothers and sisters and we all belong to you. Can you fix this? If anyone can, it’s you.

As for me, I don’t need anything. I’ve got everything I need here. I’m healthy, I can see, I have food, a roof over my head, a job, and I thank you for all you’ve given me. I want to say THANK YOU for always looking out for each of us even though we don’t deserve your love and at times we’re intolerable, you’re still here.