Do you ever feel overwhelmed….so fucking stressed out that you can’t even think straight? You call people by the wrong name…you mispronounce things and make errors over and over again? That’s me right now. I’m constantly asking myself internally, are you having a fucking stroke or something? No, nothing majorly is wrong but anytime something changes in my life it throws me off and everything starts spinning out of control in my comfort zone.
A couple of months ago I got promoted to a supervisor position. Now I’ve hired my first new employee and training him has been really difficult for me. By training him it’s putting me behind with customer orders and we’re moving so slow while the orders keep coming in. We have many different duties we need to focus on but we’re moving so slowly that everything is just piling up. It’s giving me a lot of anxiety. Anytime I’m not in control and things aren’t going my way I freak the fuck out.
So today’s song is Paradise by Coldplay. I think you’ll like the song and the video. Every time I watch the video I get a little teary eyed at the end of it. Here’s the thing, I know there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. I know it won’t be like this in weeks to come. I have to be patient with my new hire and get him trained and it will all be worth it. *** Telling myself to simmer the fuck down and look towards the end result is a job in itself ***